Stress...

on coaching my boys homework. Now, they still got their homework twice a week, most is on Monday and Thurs night.

I notice lately Fearles hardly finish his homework, sometime he will finish his numbering and leave the english/alphabets one for me to sit with him only he will do. Last night, another "homework night", i check through their homework, Cruz finished but some of the words not tidy or not correct i will erase and ask him to re-write again. As for Fearles, his homework leave it un-touch! When i tell them it's homework time, ask them to bring the file out and sit on the table wait for me, Fearles give me a "torturing moment" kind of look. :(

While Fearles doing his alphabets/sentence writting, i will do revision on the numbers and ask him to read the sentences given by the teacher, make sure he remember/recognise the words. After finish with Cruz, i will put more "effort" on Fearles. He can write well and neat, but.....when come to numbers, he can memorize and read it out but when i show him the number or when i read the number to him, he show me a "blank look", i always raise my voice and no patience with that.

Now they are learning, ascending numbers, descending numbers, missing numbers, before or after the numbers. Just fill in the blank, i will read to them and ask them what is the number and ask them to fill in. Fearles was ok last two weeks, this weeks he tend to forget and don't understand again. Like 12, _, 14, 15, he can tell me thirteen but he wrote 3 instead of 13. I explain to him 13 is with 1 in front, which 3 is only 3. When i said 15, 16, or 14 i will re-emphasis, it's 1 & 5 or 1 & 6 or 1 & 4. After few times explain, he still don't get me and i lost my temper, and use really fierce tone (like a tiger) and asked him again. He cannot answer me, but look at me again with blank and with tears rolling down on the cheeks.

Haih!! Seeing this, i feel bad, but on the other hand i really want him to learn and understand. I wish i can have more patience, and won't easily raise my voice. Maybe i "push" him too hard, till he got afraid of me and cannot think of anything. I told him, i will do the homework with him everyday and also revision. I find Fearles can recognise the words pretty well, but he speak very soft and some he cannot prounounce it in proper. Like 15 sometime he cannot pronounce "f" just like my maid!! Now i wonder is he start picking some words from the maid! Instead of saying "five" he will go "pive" :( I have to correct him and make him read until he got it correct. Good that is my "princess" leaving soon, another 11 days?