Book Blogger Confessions: Quit Blogging?!



This meme was originated by bloggers from Tiger's All Consuming Media and For What It's Worth. This meme occurs every 1st and 3rd Monday of the month to allow bloggers to vent, share an opinion, or offer a solution to a common problem.

Today's topic is:

Blogging and QuittingWe've discussed blogging slumps before but have you ever seriously considered throwing in the towel and quitting blogging? If so, what changed your mind? Did you discuss it with other bloggers?

My Answer:
I have not had a reason to quit blogging...yet. Right now, I'm so busy, I barely have time to blog. At the same time, even if I do post something, I don't see any comments to tell me that people are actually reading the content. Sure, there are page views, but that could just mean they clicked on it and exited out immediately.

No, I do not want to entertain the idea of quitting my blog, but the regularity of it might be different from now on or until I finish the acting projects I'm working on. I update my acting blog daily about my rehearsal experience so technically, I'm still blogging.

You all have to remember, I am managing three blogs and a book tour service when authors actually sign up. I think I'm still doing good given the time I actually have available and the number of things I need to manage outside the world of blogging.

News Flash: New Publisher!

Hi everyone! I'm excited to announce that W.J. May and Stephanie Amox have new publishers! W.J. May have become self-published for now, while Stephanie Amox have moved to Cena Publishing! They now have updated covers for their books and we want you all to celebrate with us. If you haven't checked out their books, please do because they are awesome!

W.J. May - Chronicles of Kerrigan
Click the links below for my reviews!
Rae of Hope
Dark Nebula (ARC)

  

Stephanie Amox - Lumina Saga
Click the link below for my review of the first book!

  

I hope you will check out the books! I'll talk to you soon!

We Are Jamaicans: A campaign against homophobia by Jamaicans for Jamaicans


I am probably jumping the gun here but I just stumbled onto this beautiful new campaign against homophobia in Jamaica.  I spotted it through a tweet sent by the Jamaica Forum for Lesbians, All-Sexuals and Gays (J-FLAG) this morning.  There is no link to a project page, just a description of the project on their YouTube site:
We Are Jamaicans is a campaign for Jamaicans, whether gay or straight, to share their experiences and perspectives about LGBT human rights. This in an effort to promote greater understanding and help change minds and hearts of Jamaicans about lesbian, gay, bisexual and transgender people. We Are Jamaicans is funded with the kind support of the Caribbean Vulnerable Communities Coalition (CVC) through its Global Fund Vulnerablised Project. The videos were recorded and edited by Maya Wilkinson.
There are five videos in the series so far. In the first one J-FLAG's own Director Dane Lewis says "I want to just be free to be me"...


In the second one Alexis Goffe says he was constantly harassed as being gay during high-school even though he wasn't and explains the reasons why now as an adult he has decided to stand up and speak out against LGBT discrimination. "Now, if you call me gay I'll feel honored," he says, "I've come out of the closet as an ally of the LGBTQ community"...


In a third video Susan Goffe speaks of her role as a teacher and a parent. "I want Jamaica to be a safe place for all our children" she says...


In the fourth video Javed Jaghai holds index cards to drive home his message...


The final video is similar from someone who has decided to remain anonymous...


Obviously the campaign has just been launched. I will update this post when there is more information about it. But I am truly moved and hope that this opens up a more welcoming environment for LGBTQ Jamaicans.

An aside: The background music is Macklemore & Ryan Lewis' "Same Love" featuring Mary Lambert.

UPDATE: Here is the official press release from J-FLAG...
J-FLAG Boss Headlines New Human Rights Video Campaign
FOR IMMEDIATE RELEASE
Thursday, January 17, 2013
Dane Lewis, the executive director of J-FLAG, Jamaica’s foremost gay rights advocacy organisation, is headlining a new a human rights video campaign featuring straight, gay and lesbian Jamaicans.
The campaign, which is called We Are Jamaicans was launched today to raise awareness among Jamaicans about lesbian, gay, bisexual and transgender (LGBT) identity and community, human rights, stigma and discrimination. We Are Jamaicans is a participatory video campaign hosted on YouTube at https://www.youtube.com/user/EqualityJA. It features prominent Jamaicans such as Susan and Alexis Goffe and Javed Jaghai.
According to Lewis, “the campaign was developed following recommendations from consultations with LGBT persons, activists and allies to show the experiences of Jamaica’s LGBT community in a more diverse way.”
There is an urgent need to interrupt prevailing discourse on LGBT realities in Jamaica. Opportunities must be created for Jamaicans to see and hear about the experiences of LGBT people so they can understand what it means to be LGBT.
“Regrettably, the diversity and the complexity of Jamaica’s LGBT community is masked by media and advocacy narratives that too often focus on sex, victimhood, crime and HIV. These themes are not identity-affirming and they sometimes further entrench the marginal position of LGBT people in the society,” Lewis said.
Javed Jaghai, an openly gay Jamaican, says that ignorance helps to fuel homophobia and the campaign will be critical for increasing understanding among the Jamaican public about gender and sexuality variance. “By diversifying the stories told about LGBT lives, the complexity of LGBT identities will be made apparent and it will be easier to evoke empathy and secure general support for tolerance,” he highlighted.
The Caribbean Vulnerable Communities Coalition (CVC) through its Global Fund Vulnerablised Project funds the campaign. It is expected to lead to greater understanding and help change minds and hearts about Jamaica’s LGBT community. Gay, lesbian and straight Jamaicans are encouraged to use creative ways of sharing their experiences with LGBT issues and join the campaign whether they wish to show their face or not.
Contact: Dane Lewis | Executive Director
P.O. Box 1152, Kingston 8 T: 978-8988 | M: 875 2328 | F: 946-3244
W: www.jflag.org | E: admin@jflag.org | T: @equalityJA
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Ice Cream Vs. Frozen Yogurt

There is a reason why I love super stores. Where I live, there is a Super Walmart. They have lots of varieties and I really appreciate that.

When I was on a hunt for ice cream, I was looking for Haagen-Dasz, but we all know how expensive that is. I also looked at sorbets, etc. Out of nowhere, I found TCBY.

TCBY stands for The Country's Best Yogurt. They have frozen yogurt instead of ice cream - half the calories. Score! My favorite is Cookies and Cream, of course. So, if you have a super Walmart near you, look for TCBY. Healthier than ice cream, and quite tasty :) I go through my quart pretty fast. I try to control myself, but I mean, it's frozen yogurt. It's hard to be as guilty as if it were ice cream.


This is really what it looks like. Look at that texture.

Easy Dinner: Lemony Meat and Potatoes

Hi everyone! I'm not the best cook, nor am I the most diligent. In fact, I'm a lazy cook. So, here's a super easy recipe.

Ingredients:
Your choice of meat (chicken, pork chops, beef)
1 Russett Potato
1-2 lemons (squeezed)
5 bottle cap Kikkoman Soy Sauce
Onions (optional)

Instructions:
1. Fry the meat until brown.
2. Chop potato in squares and add into the frying pan when it's time to turn over the meat to cook the other side. This is so that the potato will cook at the same time as the meat. (If you are using onions, add it in this step as well).
3. Squeeze the lemons into a bowl. Then, add the soy sauce. Eye ball it, the soy sauce should be about twice as much as the lemon squeeze. Taste it to make sure it's to your liking, and it's not too sour.
4. Get another frying pan and transfer the pork chops and potatoes when they're cooked. You can also leave it in the same frying pan if you didn't use too much cooking oil.
5. Pour the lemon-soy sauce mix and let it simmer. When the sauce is almost dry, it's finished!
6. Eat with rice, dinner roll, veggies, or by itself. Enjoy!


This is my go-to recipe. I just change up the meat. You can also use fish if you like, but I prefer to bake my fish. I eat one piece of meat per meal, so the picture above was good for 4 meals. That's a lot of savings there, compared to one meal at Jack in the Box or whatever your favorite fast food restaurant is :)

Let me know in the comments if you try this recipe!

Money Tips in College

Hi everyone!

One of my friends on Facebook suggested that I talk about some tips on how to be wise with money while in college. Since I've graduated last month, I thought it would be a good idea. My friend is planning to transfer from a community college to a university soon, so it was also appropriate.

Money tips in college

1. Forget about eating out, COOK.
Think about it. You spend $7-$10 for ingredients for one recipe. You will eat that recipe for two days at most. Compare that to one meal at a fast food that costs the same. 1 meal vs. 2-4 meals. I'm sure you can do the math from there. Come back here tomorrow for my go-to recipe.

  

2. Budget
I know, this is hard, but if you're diligent enough, you'd succeed. Set up a budget. Write down exactly how much you plan to spend on groceries, how much you want to save each month (or each paycheck), how much you want to save for future shopping trips with your girlfriends, and how much you want to save for booze if you like parties and you have to bring your own or you're the host.


3. Carpool
You have friends, probably that go to the same classes as you do. Agree to carpool alternately and save money that way. Either that or take public transportation. I personally only took the bus when I had no car. Other than that, I prefer the security of a car.


That's all the tips I have for now. If you have additional tips, leave them in the comments, and I'll see you back here tomorrow for a dinner recipe!

Short Story: The Devil Conversation

Hi everyone! Sorry I haven't been posting. I have a story for all of you. It made me laugh so much when I was writing it. This is based on a real conversation. I hope you enjoy it!

Erin: Did I tell you about the person that inspired me to write those two poems?

Nadine: No. You never mentioned it.

Erin: Oh okay. Well, I thought he was hot at first. But the more closely I look at him, the more I think he’s not. But there’s something about him that’s drawing me to him. I think I’m drawn to the strange types, or silent types. Maybe I like the mystery. So, he likes to wear black. Today, I saw his arms for the first time. It was vampire pale. He also barely smiles, so when he does, his face stretches. He prefers to smirk, I think. And then, he’s a very quiet guy. When he talks, you can barely hear him. He likes to talk under his breath.

Nadine: Oh God, he doesn’t sound all that attractive! He sounds sort of creepy in a way, like not too approachable.

Erin: Well, I tried to ignore him today. Didn’t work so well. It must be the gloves. Those gloves seem kind of hot to me. And he has a tattoo on his left arm. Totally hot. He needs to get out of my head. And by the way, he’s not creepy. He was sweet and nice to me.

Nadine: It’s okay to be attracted to guys. At least he’s inspiring you.

Erin: I feel pathetic.

Nadine: Sort of pathetic but not that much. You should approach him; maybe you guys can hang out.

FLASHBACK

Erin sitting at the end of a bench next to a door. Luc approaches and tries to open the door.

Erin: Good morning.

Luc sits next to Erin.

Luc: How are you?

Erin: Good. How are you?

Luc: Good.

Luc looks around, gets up, and walks away. Erin brushes her hair.

PRESENT TIME

Nadine: Well, next time, be prepared to start a conversation. Just put yourself out there, you can’t really lose anything.

FLASHBACK

Erin walks to the bathrooms. Both doors are locked. She knocks on one of them. No response. She leans on the wall and waits. The bathroom she knocks on opens, and Luc emerges.

Luc: (inaudible) How’s it going?

Erin goes into the bathroom and locks the door.

PRESENT TIME

Erin: His mouth barely moved! I think I heard him say something but who knows!

Nadine: That sounds creepy.

Erin: Why is it creepy?

Nadine: His mouth barely moved. That is creepy.

Erin: I seriously feel dumbfounded more than amused.

Nadine: Just say whatever comes to mind.

Erin: That’s dangerous. When I’m driving, I imagine of doing things to him. Very inappropriate things that probably would not happen in this lifetime. And it’s hard to sleep at night because I can’t stop thinking about him!

Nadine: Maybe write down things you could talk about next time. You guys probably have plenty in common. Smile, seem approachable.

Erin: Oh God, that sounds terrifying. He scares the crap out of me, like I might say something stupid.

Nadine: I told you, the way you describe him is a bit creepy.

Erin: I wish you could come with me so you can see him!!!

Nadine: I wish I could, too. I want to see his vampire white skin.

Erin: He’s really not that handsome when I think about it. His cheeks are sunken, like he’s a starved vampire!

Nadine: Oh God!!! Starved vampire! That sounds SO not sexy. I mean Edward vampire is hot but sunken cheeks and starved….

NICK CAVE




PAUL KLEE HAND PUPPETS




TEAM TED


I watched How I Met Your Mother a lot before. Past season 5 or 6, it kinda got boring. The show still didn't reveal "THE MOTHER" and I don't think we'll meet her in Season 8. 

Anyway, I watched another episode today and it's one of those back to back episodes. It was when Barney proposed to Robin. I seriously got pissed. I was affected. Seasons back, when Robin and Barney kissed, it was really a WTF WTH moment in television. Ewwwww. I hated that episode and I never found the tandem of Robin and Barney. I was always a fan of the Ted and Robin tandem. 

How Ted just "let go" of Robin after Marshall told him to be selfish and for once, put himself ahead of others hit me. Nice guys will always be nice guys. I got affected because it's something I'd do since I'm a "nice guy". I'm the type of person who puts others ahead. I was actually compared to a Persian Rug once since I was just too nice. True story. I was also told to think of myself. 

But that's not how nice guys roll. 

I realized that nice guys will be nice guys at the end of the day. Switching to the dark side? Not gonna happen.

TEAM TED. That's the team of all the nice guys in the world. 

Stay nice gentlemen. No matter what happens, stick to being who you are.

Lack of Posts

Hi everyone!

Sorry about the lack of posts. I've been exhausted driving back and forth to LA. I can barely read the book I'm supposed to currently be reading.

I'm updating my acting blog every day so check that out if you'd like to stay in touch. Otherwise, I'll be back soon with some new posts. Just give me time to adjust :)

*Hugs*

-Arianne

Nudes in Fury pg 20


Acting Update: First Rehearsal

If you're following my acting blog or Twitter, or we are personal friends on Facebook, you already know the good news. However, for those of you who don't, I've been cast in a play!


The play is called Dark Side of the Moon, and today I will officially start rehearsal. Did I mention I'm excited?! I originally auditioned for End of the World (as we know it), but the director probably didn't think I was a good fit for that show. Luckily, he thought I would fit better in another show! I'm so happy. This is just  the opportunity I'm waiting for.

The rehearsal process goes for about 3 weeks or so, and then we open. I'll definitely let you all know for those you live in Los Angeles area.

If you'd like to keep updated, make sure to follow my Acting Blog. I'm hoping that I'd have enough money to move close to LA by the summer time. How I'm going to earn income with this crazy schedule, now that is the challenge :) Wish me luck and pray for me!

Promo: Cityglitter by Carla Caruso


Title: Cityglitter
Author: Carla Caruso
Publisher: e-penguin
Release Date: September 15, 2012
Buy LinkAmazon

Blurb:

Christelle is like any other 20-something living in Sydney, Australia – except for one huge secret. She enjoys cocktails with girlfriends, luxury brand launches, gossip and shopping. For an added touch of spice, there’s also the sizzling connection with her new boss, the gorgeous Jasper.

Then Christelle’s younger sister, the hapless and naïve Trixie Fifi Panache, arrives unannounced, and things begin to fall apart. Not only does Christelle have to deal with her sister’s exploits and embarrassing mistakes, but she also has to live with the fear that her escapades will reveal the truth: Christelle and Trixie are half fairy, half human, and hidden beneath their clothes are a pair of gorgeous wings. To make matters worse, Christelle has fallen for Jasper, but knows that taking the relationship any further threatens exposure. And no love could survive that, could it?

Cityglitter is a charming, magical romance that leaves in its wake a glitter of fairy dust. With inner-city fabulousness and sophistication, this fun celebration of love will add more than a touch of sparkle to your life.  

Excerpt:

I look back at Mr Butterscotch Eyes, who looks a little bemused. Perhaps it’s my seven-second delay to his greeting. I think fast.

‘Hello again!’ I gush, like we’re long-lost friends, not virtual strangers.

Without thinking, I stand up on tippy-toe, leaning forward, intending to air kiss his cheek. Somehow, like a paperclip drawn to a magnet, I’m pulled askew, my lips brushing his.

The effect on my body is like switching on an electrical grid, as every pore starts to buzz. His lips, so soft, moist, kissable; his musky scent, spinning a web around me; my body, pinging like a microwave with his strong physique mere centimetres away.

Suddenly, though, the sensual warmth, the heavenly breath, has been pried away and my lips are cold, bare. I flutter my eyelids open, honing in on his gaze, detecting a flicker of something in those liquid gold-like orbs before it dies.

He clears his throat, playing with a tortoiseshell cufflink. ‘That’s certainly not the kind of greeting I’m used to – especially from someone I barely know.’


About the Author:

Carla Caruso grew up amid a boisterous extended Italian family in Australia – yet somehow managed to become a bookworm...

Carla always wanted to be a novelist, annoying the kindergarten teachers by dictating long, detailed stories to them.  It just took her a while to realize her childhood dream - journalism seemed a more practical course. Her media career has included stints as a newspaper and magazine journalist, government PR and fashion stylist. These days, she works as a freelance journalist and copywriter. She began seriously writing fiction three years ago when she went freelance full-time.

The romance genre appeals as she is a sucker for rom-coms (especially if Channing Tatum is in the mix) and likes to think her Italian ancestry means she lives with passion. Hobbies include watching trashy TV shows, fashion, astrology and running.


Getting back to shape

January is always that time when you need to shave off some of the pounds. All the food you ate during the holidays come to bite you back in the @$$. I hate it. 

What I can say is that I've been doing pretty good so far in 2013. Been eating cereeal, salad and soup. I've also started to jog again. Been using the brand new Adidas Supernovas Misha gave me for Christmas. The NIKE Fuelband on the other hand is also a good motivator to help you be more active. The weekends are pretty hard when you're in the house plus there's a lot of junk food and sweets in the kitchen. Being the weekend warrior is the way to go.

I have to share that I'm using my cousin Josh as source of inspiration and motivation. He really did so well last year. He lost 101 pounds through discipline and by working hard at the gym. Love that boy! So proud.

But the thing that got me was my brother Jonty showing me a picture of myself back in 2009. It was probably the thinnest I've been. I have to say that I really gained a lot of weight in 3 years. I need to get back to that.


I can hear my 2009 self asking "WHAT THE F DID YOU DO!?!? GET BACK INTO SHAPE!" No more stress eating this year. It's all about being fit and healthy. This is a promise I'm keeping.

Guess Where I Am Today?!

Depending on what time you are reading this, I would either be on my way or already in Los Angeles! I was notified last Thursday that I have an audition for a theater role, and I was notified yesterday that I have another audition for a student film! The theater character is Carol, she's quirky with a million dollar smile. I'm so excited! The film character is Susan who is Jack's girlfriend and they plot to steal money from Jane. Pray that I do well!

Also, since the audition is later in the afternoon, I decided to get a room at a motel so I don't have to drive too far. I doubt I'd be able to drive an hour and 45 minutes without falling asleep on the wheel anyway. It is safer this way, even if I have to pay for a room. Surprise! My mom decided to come with me and asked for a day off when I told her about this trip last Thursday! :)

Anyway, tweet me, wish me luck, give me encouragement (I need it!), or just say hi. I'll try and take pictures and let you all know how it went! @ariannecruz07

Shawarma Bros Food Truck

Did you ever watch The Great Food Truck Race on the Food Network? I thought the concept of the food truck was clever. 

Today, I went to the Food Truck Market that opened recently in Glorietta 3 Park. That's across Makati Shang. It's open from Friday to Sunday 4pm to 3am. 


So anyway, I research online and I see Shawarma Bros. Mind you it's not "brothers" it's "BROs". I actually know 3 of the owners of the new food truck and I had to taste their creation. Rammy De Claro and his friends are a batch lower than me and they're actually all pretty cool bros. I asked him what to get and he said to get the Lamb Shawarma. (They serve Lamb, Beef, and Chicken) It comes with rice, tomatoes, onions and their secret Garlic Yogurt sauce and Chili Cheese sauce. I tried it and I had to go back to Rammy to say whole heartedly that it was really really good. LEGIT! I didn't tell him this but it's something The Avengers would go back to all the time. Shawarma? GO TO SHAWARMA BROS.




Photo taken from Shawarma Bros Facebook Page



Rammy serving customers

I read the mission of Shawarma Bros at the side of the truck while waiting and it was actually their love of Shawarma that made them move forward with their concept. They've tried so many already and they got all those learnings and came up with their own. What I liked is that they welcome you to their "broderhood" and everyone who goes to Shawarma Bros will be treated like a Bro.

If you love Shawarma, better go to Cucina Andare, the Food Truck Market and try the food from Shawarma Bros because it's LEGIT! Awesome awesome food!




2013 Mount TBR Reading Challenge

I can't help myself, I wanted to participate in another challenge. I think this would be a good motivation for me to actually read the books on my shelves! This one is hosted by My Reader's Block (click the link for the challenge sign up). I've looked at my shelves and picked out which books I'd like to tackle for this challenge. Three of them are crossovers from the Finish the Series Challenge I posted yesterday.


First, let's look at the level choices and the rules, directly quoted from My Reader's Block.

Challenge Levels (I've adjusted the levels just slightly this year):

Pike's Peak: Read 12 books from your TBR pile/s
Mount Blanc: Read 24 books from your TBR pile/s
Mt. Vancouver: Read 36 books from your TBR pile/s
Mt. Ararat: Read 48 books from your TBR piles/s
Mt. Kilimanjaro: Read 60 books from your TBR pile/s
El Toro: Read 75 books from your TBR pile/s
Mt. Everest: Read 100 books from your TBR pile/s
Mount Olympus (Mars): Read 150+ books from your TBR pile/s

And the rules:

*Once you choose your challenge level, you are locked in for at least that many books. If you find that you're on a mountain-climbing roll and want to tackle a taller mountain, then you are certainly welcome to upgrade.

*Challenge runs from January 1 to December 31, 2013.

*You may sign up anytime from now until November 30th, 2013.

*Books must be owned by you prior to January 1, 2013. No ARCs (none), no library books. No rereads. [To clarify--based on a question raised last year--the intention is to reduce the stack of books that you have bought for yourself or received as presents {birthday, Christmas, "just because," etc.}. Audiobooks and E-books may count if they are yours and they are one of your primary sources of backlogged books.]

*You may count any "currently reading" book that you begin prior to January 1--provided that you had 50% or more of the book left to finish in 2013.  I will trust you all on that.

*Books may be used to count for other challenges as well.

*Feel free to submit your list in advance (as incentive to really get those books taken care of) or to tally them as you climb.

*A blog and reviews are not necessary to participate. If you have a blog, then please post a challenge sign up and link THAT post (not your home page) into the linky below. Non-bloggers, please leave a comment declaring your challenge level--OR, if you are a member of Goodreads, I will once again put together a group for the challenge there. Feel free to sign up HERE.  And, finally, I am contemplating a review tracker for this year.  I will post a link if that works out.
So, here is my list:

 Crossovers
-Forever by Maggie Stiefvater
-Happy Ever After by Nora Roberts
-Destined by PC and Kristin Cast

Other TBR books
-Maze Runner by James Dashner
-Fever by Lauren DeStefano
-The Perfect Play by Jaci Burton
-Maid to Match by DeeAnne Gist
-Swoon by Nina Malkin
-Sweet Evil by Wendy Higgins
-Divergent by Veronica Roth
-Clockwork Angel by Cassandra Clare
-Paranormalcy by Kiersten White

My list is mostly YA since that's what's mostly on my big bookshelf. I added a couple romance to keep me sane, but they are clean enough to be reviewed on this blog (except maybe for The Perfect Play). I may or may not increase my level later depending on my progress. This is going to be fun!

Indelible Memories from 2012










Indelible Memories from 2012
by Francis Joseph A. Cruz

There isn’t any other year in Philippine cinema where the aroma of death is as apparent and overwhelming as 2012. The year saw the untimely demise of four of the country’s film pioneers: Mario O’Hara, an amazing actor, writer, and director whose frequent collaborations with National Artist Lino Brocka are eclipsed by his very own masterworks; Marilou Diaz-Abaya, one of the country’s most beloved directors whose respect for the power of cinema manifested in her very tasteful and mannered works; Celso Ad Castillo, whose unique genius and madness reflected in the many timeless masterpieces he directed; and Dolphy, who gave several generations of Filipinos the ability to surpass life’s difficulties with laughter.

The year’s more notable independent productions also deal with death: Jun Lana’s Bwakaw, the country’s hope for the very elusive Oscar trophy, has an old gay man suffering through the unremarkable last years of his life; Dwein Baltazar’s Mamay Umeng, a striking debut, exposes ennui in a geriatric’s patient wait to cross-over to the afterlife; Loy Arcenas’ REquieme, the theater director’s follow-up to the lovely Nino, has tales of mortality humorously intertwine by fate; Emmanuel Palo’s Sta. Nina has a once dormant town burst with life when a father uncovers the incorruptible corpse of his daughter who died several years ago; Mes de Guzman’s Diablo literally has the shadow of death, or some other entity, lingering over a lonely mother.

The year’s more prominent documentaries tackle the same subject: Michael Collins’ Give Up Tomorrow has then death row convict Paco Larranaga ponder over his own mortality amidst the threat of being executed over a crime he supposedly did not commit; Benito Bautista’s Harana laments the dying art of serenade; Jay Abello’s Pureza: The Story of Negros Sugar laments the impending death of a national industry and an island’s extravagant way of life.

This gnawing awareness of mortality seems to be a repercussion of this year’s much-ballyhooed doomsday. However, the country’s more prominent commercial studios, the unashamed peddlers of fairy tales and fantasies, seem unfazed by the world’s impending end, churning out films that are nothing more than temporary alleviations to the world’s pressing concerns. Their rom-coms remain predictably breezy, tweaking only certain aspects of the formula to feign edginess. Their comedies remain predictably brazen, primarily reliant on cruel wit and dull craftsmanship. Their horrors remain predictably brooding, taking each and every opportunity to shock with tricks and noises because true horror takes too much time and creativity to conjure. Then there is that rising subgenre of infidelity films like Erik Matti’s Rigodon, Olivia’s Lamasan’s The Mistress and Nuel Naval’s A Secret Affair that allow each and every bored wife and horny husband to vicariously experience through the fake stories played out by exaggeratedly attractive stars the thrills and chills of an extra-marital affair.

Despite the stubborn and fatalistic mood of this cinematic year, it is still a year marked with painful revelations, beautiful reunions and admirable persistence. It is a year that had Cinemalaya shaken and the myth of its humble grant and immense prestige challenged. It is also the year that had the long-absent Nora Aunor acting for film again and reaping accolades as a result. It is the year that had the government’s film agency try its hand in grant-giving and film-producing, had local government units take a stab in investing in the filmic arts, and ordinary film enthusiasts take an active role in filmmaking by contributing in various kickstarter campaigns.

I don’t think it is death that marks this year in Philippine cinema. It is memory. It is resilience. It is struggle. We remember the past and our fallen heroes. Film festivals like Cinemalaya and filmmakers like Emerson Reyes succeed despite adversity. Filipino cinema is as vibrant as ever. In the most indelible image from Lav Diaz’s Florentina Hubaldo CTE, one of the best films from this year, we see a woman who is afflicted with a disease that makes it hard for her to remember painfully reciting her name, her situation, her story. This year, Philippine cinema is that poor woman, struggling to tell its story, so it won’t be forgotten, not even after the end of the world.

(A shortened version was first published in Rogue, December issue as "A Year of Local Cinema.")